sharing the journey of self-directed healing
writing, creative practice + ritual space
This space is carved out for those called to walk the shaded path of self-directed healing. My offerings weave the written word, and creative practice with ritual space, intending to gently guide beings to re-connect their internal + external landscapes, to soothe and nurture their whole selves into being.
my healing journey
Repetitive, severe, testing and lonely, my life has been full of trials, and deep sorrow. Early childhood traumas sculpted my life, and I struggled to initiate into adulthood as I attempted to manage continued re-traumatizations, undiagnosed learning differences, c-PTSD and worsening chronic health conditions.
In 2017, I was not aware of being on a ‘healing journey’, each crumb on my path leading to the next, starting with ASMR videos on YouTube, as I began training my nervous system to understand safety. These videos led me to Reiki, and several of my teachers, which created a bridge to spiritualism, mysticism and astrological understanding. The pandemic in 2020 acted as a catalyst for me, arriving just before the start of my Saturn return; it was during this time I moved to Edinburgh, which was an initiation into my deeper journey.
My Saturn return was a deeply humbling experience which stripped me back to the bone, cleared everything from my path, and gave me the tools to carve myself from the stone in which I had existed. These tools included shadow work, spirituality, naturopathy, nutrition, and somatic movement. As I healed, my world expanded.
My return birthed me into a new way of being and seeing the world, with me being deeply intertwined with it. This new understanding drew me towards Rooted Healing, and now further still into grief work, and this is where I meet you at this moment - beginning to deepen, root and hone my practice.
My journey has had many stops along the way - some extreme, some shared widely - yet I stand before you as a sovereign woman, an example of how achievable healing is - no matter how lost you may feel, hope is present.
what is self-directed healing?
I like the definition that states healing is a process of returning to a state of wholeness; we have all of the pieces within reach, we simply need to gather ourselves back together carefully, and guild the cracks with gold.
A lifelong journey, self-directed healing is a choice to show up for our well-being; it is acknowledging our capacity to heal ourselves; it is a choice to stop giving our power away; it is owning our responsibility to do all we can to care for ourselves; it is taking empowered action with the tools we have available to us, whether that is talking, gaining knowledge, somatic practice, adjusting our diets or relinquishing unsupportive habits etc.
The over-culture within our modern (western) society has actively trained us to relinquish this power, and removed us from our natural animal ways of being; placed within an increasingly overwhelming, violent and unnatural world, which hurts all beings and the earth we walk upon, there is no wonder our bodies, minds and souls are unwell.
But the body, mind and soul naturally wish to come into balance; intelligent beyond mental comprehension, our bodies are programmed to heal themselves, so it is our role as self-directed healers to learn the language of our body, mind and soul, building trust by listening to what they truly need from us. We do not force, but simply create the right conditions to support this process, through deeply nourishing ourselves and seeking guidance, and support, when required - whether that is medical or holistic.
With dedication and building trust in our innate capabilities, we can come into balance and live fulfilling lives. My role as a space holder and guide is to offer gentle support as you move into the right conditions for you to heal yourself - offering authentic expression and compassionate space for you. Whether you choose to journey with me or find another pathway forward, I truly hope you find so much nourishment within this work of self-directed healing.